Q & A

hmmmm...as always i have broken my promise once again to write frequently, after all it is my only out let, well not quite my only out let! its been a while I'm a little rusty and sleepy..as usual sitting in front of a blank screen in the wee hours of the morning indicates that trouble is lurking by but i guess its not troubles that hushes sleep away its the feeling of emptiness. It makes me question whether or not all that i do is sufficient? i guess the answer to this question lies with in myself and i dont need to look for answers around me, its the looking with in myself part that scares me, maybe i don't want to come across the brutal reality of this superficial life that I'm leading...there is so much going on around us and we are just blinded by all that bling! why? this is the question that rules my thoughts the most, it is the ability to question that is slowly being replaced by less important statements. The ability to question is the one that makes us human, it gets really irritating as well when you repeatedly ask a question, even if it is to oneself, but its the very essence of human nature, no matter how big or small, it helps to learn and makes us more aware, are you aware with all the little luxuries around you? the unplanned pedicures? all the spontaneous dinner plans? all the crazy shoe shopping? its these little luxuries we don't even reckon, why? because we don't question...we are not aware. My point is appreciate! you might wake up tommorrow and not have all of it....i questioned myself today..and i ended up appreciating my little packages of blessings:) so WHY is a very important factor in my life...